My brain seems to be going a bit crazy today. This morning I was sad because of the shooting in California and feeling troubled about all the misogyny in the world. This afternoon I am missing my hometown, my high school friends, and high school choir. I don’t like the way life separates you from people you care about and then those people move on. I think part of the problem is that I spend (and I have always spent) too much time in the past and the future, and not enough time living today and making today what I want it to be.
That is one of the big pieces of advice my therapist has been giving me…and I think she’s right.
Easier said than done though…sigh.
It’s hard to not miss people. Hard to not want the present to be different. Hard to try to live each day to the fullest instead of waiting for some future day that will be better. Sometimes it’s hard to figure out what I really need out of life anyway. One day at a time I guess.